Wednesday, August 28th, 2013 – 9:45pm

A fairly normal day today.

Jess had a pretty good day. Went to an MRI this morning which is always fun. No results right away but she drove herself and I stayed with the girls.

Jess spent the day in some pain but was very tough and got through it. Her and I actually got to go out for a short while. A quick trip to Shaw’s. We called it Date Hour!

My kids are also here with us tonight. She helped with dinner. She was a real trooper today. So proud of her.

Overall a fairly good day inside our tornado.

Until tomorrow…

Tuesday August 27, 2013

OK, I am out of my Chemotherapy fog.  Holy Crap!  Nobody will ever be able to describe the actual feeling of the “chemo hangover.”  Day 3 and Day 4 post chemo are horrid, that’s it.  I am going to have anxiety about my next round of chemo just thinking about Days 3 and 4 after!

I can feel the Chemo working.  My tumor (unfortunately) is huge.  It sticks out like a lime.  I can feel these electric twinges and zaps.  It’s strange but true, it’s almost like one of those stupid bug lights from when I was a kid, it had the purple light and it would make this zapping sound.  Well, to put that “sound” to a “feeling”, that’s it!

I am so unbelievably proud of my babies.  They knew that I needed them this weekend and they stepped up and were so well behaved and so gentle with each other.  They rubbed my head and rubbed my back and just laid with me and didn’t ask any of the “normal” questions that you would think a 3 and 4 1/2 year old would ask when they saw their Mommy sick.  I could not be more proud of them, they are such good kids and they have been given the job to be my engines and my fuel, I will make damn sure that I don’t let them down.

I have to share this amazing recipe that was a miracle for me.  It made my symptoms so much noticeably better, it was just amazing.  It came from “The Cancer Fighting Kitchen”, but I would recommend this to anyone with any sickness, stomach bug, headache…it’s just awesome and it’s good for you 🙂

4 cups water

4  1/2-inch slices peeled fresh ginger

2 green tea bags

1 tablespoon freshly squeezed lemon juice

2 teaspoons agave nectar or honey

Bring the water and ginger to a boil in a saucepan, then lower the heat, cover, and simmer for 10 minutes.  Remove from the heat, add the tea bags, and steep for 10 minutes.  Remove the tea bags and ginger, stir in the lemon juice and agave nectar, and chill for at least 1 hour before serving over ice.

Be Well, J

Monday, August 26th, 2013 – 11pm

I’m so sorry for the lateness of the post. I’m in NY. Late night meeting with my clients. Truth is I hate to be here but more than every I must sell. I must provide for those I adore.

Jess had a tough day. Girls were sick all day. Thank God for Michelle and Sammi. Just don’t know how we could make it work with out them today.

Yes, Hannah was sick all day and into most of the night. Izzy was sick all Sunday night and didn’t really feel well all day. Just the worst time. Crazy life we have right now.

On the positive note. I had so many people reach out to me today to express their concern. They all know the crap Jess is going through. I love telling my Jess story. Love having people wish her well. She is amazing.

Jess and I got to speak on the phone a couple times day. She is sour I’m away but supportive. She sounded much better when I spoke to her. That made me feel awesome. Tuesday is our anniversary. Seems like we have been together 10 years. Lucky we are.

I will home Tuesday evening. Can’t wait to see the girls and grab my two nuts on Wednesday!

Loves.

Monday, August 26th, 2013 – 2:15am

Early morning fireworks..

You didn’t think we would sleep through the night did you? Ha

I have always referred to us as the Circus Six. Jess has her and her girls and me with my two kids. Mini Brady Bunch if you will. We always have something. Some mini drama. Some circus. It’s awesome. Family. Not always fun to deal with but I love the look back and love to say “hey, who cares, that’s us!”

Well, 2am wake up call by Izzy. Little throw up. Not much. Just enough to have an early shower and she gets to sleep with Momma while I get pushed to the next bedroom. Oh yeah, lots of fun we are having in Ashland. Ha!

Izzy is the 3 year old. “The Beast” as we call her. A tad taller than her sister and probably has 10 lbs on her. Did I mention Izzy is a year and a half younger than Hannah. Izzy is just the most caring kid, she can tell Mommy isn’t well. Keeps asking when Mommy will be better. This “Scott being in charge” is not going over too well.

With that said, don’t cross Izzy or make her mad. She will not be happy and will push, bite, kick and punch to handle her business. Kid is the real deal my friends.

The point of this post is how amazing Jess is. She feels like absolutely crap. Most likely you can take your worse day in the last six months and triple it. Her head hurts, body is just aching with the chemo attacking this damn cancer and she just pops up to be right there for her little girl. Held her hair, calmed her down and did the play by play while I fumbled around in the dark.

She is just the most amazing Mom and person I know. I’m super sensitive to parents. Always have been. Probably all the coaching I have done and its just radar I’ve developed over the years. That and probably being an over protective Dad. Not a good combo. Seen some who don’t “get it” so the ones who do really amaze me.

I do admit, most of you ladies would absolutely pop up to do this for your kids. I’ve always been amazed by that point. But with her being this sick. It’s just amazing.

For the record I did the shower, cleared the bed and cleaned out the throw up bucket. Got Jess some fresh water and a Tylenol. I was waiting for someone to hand me an award like the VMA’s but nothing. Probably should have worn my Miley Cyrus outfit but as no one can even handle my socks and sandals, perhaps that wouldn’t be a good look either.

When do I get to be called Nurse Leip? I’ve had so many women call me Doctor, so maybe I will stick with that.

Serious update – all 3 girls are sleeping. Time to get some rest.

Night everyone. Loves!

Scott

Sunday, August 25th, 2013 – 8:30pm

Well it’s Sunday night and we are winding down another day. Not much to report but I will do my best to capture the days events.

Girls went with Auntie Lisa to see Izzy and Hannah’s Dad then Auntie took them for a play date. Auntie Lisa is a wonderful person and while I don’t know her too well, I can tell you Jess adores her, her friendship and how she has come to count on her. Oh and the girls think she can do no wrong. Isn’t it funny how kids know the good people from the not so good? Amazes me how smart all kids are.

They got back around 5. Had a great time. Lisa was so sweet to bring back dinner and two very tired little girls.

I was home until 12. Got most of the house chores done. Went to the mall to get my Courtney a replacement IPhone, then went to Market Basket to get the shopping done. Real benefit of my divorce. Where I was clueless on most things “domestic”, I’m now a monster on anything like that. I can cook, clean, shop. Oh and I work full time and run a youth basketball program on the side. Come to think of it, Jess has hit the jackpot!! Funny how I don’t think she sees if that way. Sorry. I just can’t help myself! Lmao!!!

Jess’ day was uneventful. She has slept most of the day and hasn’t done much. She has taken her meds and even gave herself a shot yesterday. Crazy stuff!

I’m hoping she is on her way down to try and eat something. She is very weak, tired and just her entire body is in pain. I’m told this is to be expected but just amazing to watch someone who NEVER sits down to not be doing anything. I feel so helpless not being able to do anything and feel like a dope as I ask for the 200th time today “honey – what can I do?” She is going to knock me out soon, I can just see it in her eyes.

I’m headed to NY very early tomorrow to make some bacon so Auntie Sammi is coming over. She will be with the girls and Jess tomorrow. I think Sammi will wake up around 2. You know how these college kids can be! Ha. Just joking. It’s such a huge help to have family come and stay with Jess. I would have cancelled my trip to NY if someone wasn’t coming over.

Praying for Jess to be stronger tomorrow. Would love to see her take a walk or get some fresh air in her system.

Until tomorrow dear friends..

Scott

Sunday, August 25th, 2013 – 12pm

So it’s noon, Jess is getting some much needed rest and the girls went with Auntie Lisa to visit their Dad and have a play date with some friends.

Morning was good. Girls got up happy. Got to hang with their Momma. So cute together. I did the dishes, got the girls ready to go and watched some ESPN.

Jess is very weak and tired today. Body is getting used to the chemo and I’ve never seen her sleep this much. Happy she can rest.

I had a nice chat with Jess’ Mom this am. Gave her the update and perhaps we will see her later today. Debbie and Bill live in Bellingham. Very sweet people.

I’m headed out for a bit. Let Jess get some rest so I can get some shopping done.

Back later!

Saturday, August 24th – 9:15pm

Hello everyone. This will be the last post of our day. Jess is asleep. I’m just watching a movie and gonna post on the blog so when she wakes up she can be embarrassed by my post. I do live for the little things.

She really wants to keep track of all this. A scrapbook of all that she is going through and what our life is like.

Jess’ Dad and Michelle brought the kids back around 5 or so. They took them for the last two night and to the zoo today. When they got back it was clear everyone would sleep well tonight.

Bob and Michelle are so sweet and genuine. They are such down to earth people. I can see how Jess turned out so normal. Bubby, Josh and Sammi (sort of, lol) too. Such a beautiful family.

And most of you know I think all women are freaks. I have four of them who I would take a bullet for these days so I’m fairly certain I know what I’m talking about. Lol

Jess finally got some soup in her. Chicken noodle. She likes it really hot so if anyone puts ice in it to cool it down, you will be yelled at to never do that again. Ok. Duly noted

I could tell having the girls here made Jess feel better. There is something about being with your kids that no matter what, just makes a Mom and/or Dad feel better. Funny thing is its probably the one item Jess and I are 100% on the same page about. Our kids are our lives.

We have had some things happen to us which we would rather not go through again, but deep down it doesn’t matter. Our kids and getting them what they need and when they need it, that’s all that matters. Probably why we fell for each other so quick. It was easy to hear each other talk about what we wanted out of this life and how no matter what we did, the kids came 1st.

Ah who am I kidding. Jess saw me at Nellos and ran over to me like a hobo gets after a ham sandwich. I think I still have the scratch marks where she clawed into me. (Yes, I’m gonna catch a ton of heat for that one!) What can I say, truth sucks sometimes. Sorry Jess!

I digress..

Even with the cancer, she still got up and helped the girls shower and went through the 45 minute circus they do each night. Yelling, screaming, heated milk, snack, missing binki’s, what PJ’s to wear. Yeah, I need a drink shortly after the girls go down. It’s not a shocker why!!

Joking aside its the only time I’m jealous of Jess and her girls. She gets to put those girls down every night. With a kiss, a hug and that warm feeling that they will all wake up tomorrow together. Only part of my changed life I will never get over. I only get my kids 1/3 of the month. Jess probably doesn’t realize that watching her put her kids to bed each night allows me to remember how awesome it was when my kids were little. I won’t ever be the Dad of those little girls but its so awesome to watch them grow and help take care of them whenever Jess needs me to.

So great to see Jess peaceful and sleeping. Happy she is getting some rest.

Sunday I will get some shopping done. Jess is hoping she feels better so she can come. It’s a Market Basket / Shaws circus. We argue over chocolate, cheese and all sorts of fun things. We normally run into people we know. It takes 2 hours to get it done and I love every minute of it. The best ones are when all six of us are there. Those are my favorite. Yes, it gets ugly but that’s our family.

Until tomorrow….we will continue our Journey!

I am left her remembering all the great calls, texts, tweets and Facebook posts from all of Jess’ friends and mine. Incredible the amount of support she has received. Not too surprised really is the damn woman is nearly perfect. If she knew anything about hoop I would swear she was fake. But we all do have our flaws.