It has been quite the week. I might say this has been one of the worst weeks of my life. We got bad news today. My Breast Cancer has spread to my liver. There are too many tumors to count. I now have Stage 4 Cancer. There is no cure. The good news I got today was that it is not in my spine, which they had initially thought last week. They canceled my chemo today and next Tuesday I start a whole new treatment. The tumor in my breast just took a back seat, although when I had my examination today, my breast tumor had shrunk a bit from the last round of chemo which my oncologist was thrilled with, means I responded well to the chemo. My new chemotherapy is Taxotere, Herceptin and Pertuzumab. I will be on these three until they stop working and then we will try new ones until something else works. These drugs have a lot of side effects (temporary and permanent). The bottom line is that I have Stage 4 cancer and it is not going away. I will have to be on chemotherapy and treatments for the rest of my life. The idea is to keep the liver tumors down and under control. This can only be done with treatments. I can never stop. I will have scans every 9 weeks to check the size of the tumors and my treatments will be based on that as well as my blood work (tumor markers and liver functions). I have to fight for the rest of my life and I have every reason plus some to fight. I will fight until it is no longer an option.
My hair started falling out in chunks this morning while in the shower. By tonight, it was time to get rid of it. The kids freaked. They are afraid that people are going to laugh at me. I had a long chat with them, they both had turns with the razor to help Mommy shave her head and at the end they were both smiling.
Right now my liver hurts and I have some back pain but the pain is tolerable and there is no need for any medication. I have all the confidence in the world in my medical team and I know that everyday there are new designer drugs and clinical trials that are being used. I must stay positive, I will stay positive.
Thanks for all your love, thoughts and prayers- keep them coming!!