Friday, September 6, 2013

It has been quite the week.  I might say this has been one of the worst weeks of my life.  We got bad news today.  My Breast Cancer has spread to my liver.  There are too many tumors to count.  I now have Stage 4 Cancer.  There is no cure.  The good news I got today was that it is not in my spine, which they had initially thought last week.  They canceled my chemo today and next Tuesday I start a whole new treatment.  The tumor in my breast just took a back seat, although when I had my examination today, my breast tumor had shrunk a bit from the last round of chemo which my oncologist was thrilled with, means I responded well to the chemo.  My new chemotherapy is Taxotere, Herceptin and Pertuzumab.  I will be on these three until they stop working and then we will try new ones until something else works.  These drugs have a lot of side effects (temporary and permanent).  The bottom line is that I have Stage 4 cancer and it is not going away.  I will have to be on chemotherapy and treatments for the rest of my life.  The idea is to keep the liver tumors down and under control.  This can only be done with treatments.  I can never stop.  I will have scans every 9 weeks to check the size of the tumors and my treatments will be based on that as well as my blood work (tumor markers and liver functions).  I have to fight for the rest of my life and I have every reason plus some to fight.  I will fight until it is no longer an option.

My hair started falling out in chunks this morning while  in the shower.  By tonight, it was time to get rid of it.  The kids freaked.  They are afraid that people are going to laugh at me.  I had a long chat with them, they both had turns with the razor to help Mommy shave her head and at the end they were both smiling.

Right now my liver hurts and I have some back pain but the pain is tolerable and there is no need for any medication.  I have all the confidence in the world in my medical team and I know that everyday there are new designer drugs and clinical trials that are being used.  I must stay positive, I will stay positive.

Thanks for all your love, thoughts and prayers- keep them coming!!

Love, J

4 thoughts on “Friday, September 6, 2013

  1. Jess, I am sending all my love and thoughts and prayers to you during this time when you need it most. As much as we may have drifted apart in adulthood, you were a huge part of my childhood and I will love you forever and ever. Fight this with all you have, and know that there are countless people behind you ready to tag in to help you fight, every single step of the way. I love you! Colleen

  2. Hello Scott and Jessica, I am sorry for the news you have received and my heart aches for you both. I will continue to send positive thoughts your way and if there is anything Mike and I can do for either one of you please just ask. Maybe a getaway to MD…our home is open to you if you need to just get away. If you need us there just say the word, All our love, Mike and Rita Auble

  3. Hey Jess. Been thinking of you often and am routing for you to fight this thing. Really, if there is anything I can do like take the girls, cook a meal, do laundry. Whatever you need don’t be afraid to ask for help bi know you are strong but being strong includes knowing your limitations. Luv you and talk to you soon. Donna

  4. Dear God Jess, I am soo sorry. I will continue to pray for you daily and will beg for a new treatment for you. You do not deserve this and neither do your beautiful girls. My heart breaks reading this. .. I wish there was something I could say or do…Keep positive and fight I know you will..hugs and positive vibes being sent to you. ..

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