Okay, it’s time for me to blog, although I have been avoiding it like the friggen plague.
Those fevers since my last Chemos never went away. I then became orthostatic and my heart rate was up to 126 and never went under 100. I ended up being admitted to the hospital. It was my first admit to a cancer floor. Its a controlled environment floor and nothing like a general medical floor. There’s a different something in the air. I was a cancer patient and a heart patient now. I ended up having a pericardial and pleural effusion. They were both small and viral. I had an EKG and Echocardiogram done to make sure my heart wasn’t weak and those were normal, except for the effusion. I then found out why I had really been admitted. My Breast Cancer is in my bones. I used to lay in bed at night and pray to myself “please don’t let it get in my bones.” I was perfectly fine where it was, I had accepted it and had the plan laid out and this was my life and I was okay with that. Well, at least I have an explanation for my pain. I’ve got 2 big tumors in my spine, one in the thoracic area and one in the lumbar area. I also have the entire right side of my sacrum infested with tumors.
Scott had slept in the hospital with me the night before but had left around 10:45 am to gather all 4 kids. My oncologist walked in at 11:15 am and shared this news with me, I was alone. She laid in the bed with me and hugged me and told me not to worry. “Now is not the time to worry.” It was the day before my oldest child was turning 5 years old. She had just hit me with the one thing I had been praying to not happen and she was telling me not to worry. She then told me that she was changing one of my Chemos. It was the one that I didn’t want her to change, I begged her to let me keep it, I told her I can handle the fevers and the side effects, I literally begged her. She, of course, said a big “No”. She could not just let me have a “fever” as a side effect, especially having a depleted immune system. Apparently, I just can’t handle the Taxotere. It’s a tough one and I can’t handle it and I am pissed.
So, this where I am at. Stage 4 Breast Cancer that has metastasized to my Liver and my Bones. I now have Chemotherapy infusions once a week, every Monday. Now that I am on a milder chemo, I am told that I shouldn’t have many side effects.
On the other side, we had a great Wednesday forward. Hannah turned 5 and had such a wonderful birthday with her friends and family. Scott is going to update everyone on all of this tomorrow 🙂