Monday, November 25, 2013

Chemo was easy peasy today. Needle went right in, no digging for veins and not too much pain. I only had one chemo therapy today. Next Monday I have 3 different chemo therapies, one right after the other, so it’s an all day affair. I feel like I have been poisoned but my vitals are good, my heart rate is stable and no fevers, so I will take it. The loss of feeling in my fingers is the same. My blood work wasn’t terrible today, my white counts were very low but that’s to be expected. Red counts were low but not too low. Platelets were good. My liver and kidney functions were elevated since the previous week (like more than double) but my Chemo nurse told me that’s to be expected because the toxic drugs make my organs work harder and elevates the levels. This I don’t like, because if the chemo is not killing the tumors in my liver than my liver functions will also go up so it’s hard sometimes to look at those numbers. And my kidneys are being poisoned as well. Good times.

Here’s something for people who don’t know me. Tomorrow is November 26. I buried my twin baby boys 11 years ago tomorrow. They are so loved up in heaven with my family and friends I have unfortunately lost. I pray all the time to them, I think they are being selfish little boys right now, they need to understand that their baby sisters need their mother to stay here alive and well with them. I almost feel like I am being pulled in 2 directions. I need my baby boys to rest easy and look over us here where the girls and I belong.

I wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! This post is in no way negative, just a real update on my life and journey. I am happy and grateful and have so much to be thankful for. I am lucky and blessed. Love to you all and thanks for the continued love, thoughts and prayers because they are working, I truly believe that without my family and friends and all of you who take the time to read this, that I would be worse off if I didn’t have all the love coming my way. I can feel it and I can’t thank you all enough!

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7 thoughts on “Monday, November 25, 2013

  1. Happy 11th birthday to your boys! I can’t imagine 11 years, hopefully they will continue to look out for you and keep you here w your girls! I am glad you have so many people sending prayers and love! Enjoy the good times and hopefully there are more of them and that the poison does its jobs the right ways! Xxxooo

  2. You are in my prayers Jess. You have always been a kind person to me and I wanted to thank you for sharing your painful, yet beautiful journey with me and all of your Facebook friends. You are a fighter Jess! And you have definitely proved yourself to be a strong woman! I am rooting for ya!! Keep kicking it’s ass!!!!!!! xoxo

  3. Jess, you are in my thoughts & prayers everday. You are a remarkable person with so much courage. My cousin Scott is so lucky to have met you and have you & your girls in his life. Take care. Love, Cindy xxoo

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