Thursday June 26, 2014

Time to catch up on life. Let’s start with something other than my health. Spain was AWESOME! We arrived early on Sunday morning and check-in at the resort wasn’t until the afternoon, so we roamed the resort and found this little hidden gem of a café.  Since I hadn’t eaten any of the delicatessen on the plane, I was so excited! I had 2 of the best fresh spinach burgers and some ice cold Kombucha.  Everything was organic and vegetarian and they even made me my fresh green juice. They looked at me funny when I said I want everything that you have that is green, except fruit.  Most people add fruit to their juices to sweeten it up, not me, only veggies.  We checked in and got a little siesta and then had to meet some of Scott’s colleagues for a few drinks and then had a nice dinner on the water.  We woke up early Monday morning and took a coach to The Rock of Gibraltar. That place was cool! Had a great tour and learned a lot of the history of the rock and the apes that live there.  We got to walk through St. Michaels Cave and see all the stalagmites and stalactites.  Absolutely beautiful.  It was a full day tour so by the time we made it back to the resort, we had to shower and get ready for a meet and greet dinner with Scott’s company.  It was so nice and there was a mariachi band.  The sun sets so late there, like 10:30 pm! So, as you can imagine there is a lot of nightlife happenings.  Definitely not something Scott and I are used to so after dinner we were wiped.  We had another tour for Granada scheduled for Tuesday morning but I knew going to bed that night, there was no way I was going to make it.  So, in classic Scott Leip style, he used the cancer card and we got out of the tour.  I was a little bummed, I really wanted to see Alhambra and Granada but I did get to sleep until noon.  Scott and I got to spend some quality time together and just walk around and not think about anything going on in our real lives.  On Thursday, we toured the city of Ronda, I absolutely loved it.  Classic old school Spain village, just so beautiful. We got to go inside the old Spanish churches and light candles and I got a beautiful rosary to take home.  We also went the famous bull fighting stadium, they only do the fights 4 or 5 times a year.  While we were in Ronda, we drove up the mountain to an organic wine farm where we had a wine tasting of the wines they make there and also had homemade paella from the veggies on the farm.  It was definitely my favorite day and its where I got most of my souvenirs! That evening, we had a 5 star dinner with the execs of Scotts company, it was unbelievable.  Friday we got to relax and just enjoy the resort, we had a final company dinner with live Flamenco dancers.  The whole trip was amazing, I met some wonderful people and made some great memories.  I was ready to come home, I missed my kids so much.  The Metrowest Bootcamp gals were having the pink ball that Friday night and sent me a video message that set off tears in front of everyone I was with that evening.  I can’t thank them enough for all they have done for my family, its so wonderful.  My dear friend Emily gets a huge shout out for that as well, I just love you guys and am so blessed.  Most days, I can forget about the fact that I have terminal breast cancer.  For lack of a better phrase, I guess I am used to it.  I know what my limitations are and I know when I can or can’t push them.  I don’t let cancer run my life.  When I DO remember that I have terminal breast cancer, it hits me pretty hard.  That night, it hit me hard.  These wonderful people were back in the states, putting a beautiful evening together and honoring me, along with other women who are fighting this awful disease.  I just sat there for a few minutes and cried like a baby because I couldn’t believe that I actually have breast cancer. It was a what the f moment.  It doesn’t happen as often as it used to but it definitely still happens and it’s not pretty, especially for Scott.  Part of the emotional breakdown is the fact that I have so much love and support and people cheering me on.  I honestly do not know what I would do if I didn’t have all the support.  The fact that I can inspire even just one person, is amazing to me.  My family is my fuel, my husband and my kids are the strongest people I know, but the support that surrounds me is the glue that holds everything together.  I am so grateful and thankful every single day.

Monday morning was back to life, back to reality. (you know you are all singing that song in your head now)

I’m still on the same treatments. I had a full infusion on Monday through my port and also my 6 week Lupron and I still take the Femara every night.  Tuesday I was at the doctors as well, so by the time Wednesday came, I was junk.  Jet lagged and drugs running through my veins.  My labs are a little messed up right now, live functions have quadrupled, bilirubin went up and my tumor markers are freaking rising. I get scanned in 4 weeks to see what is going on and we go from there….

Yes, I have daily aches and pains and limitations.  I still have quite a bit of neuropathy so I am going to try some acupuncture to see if I get some feeling back.  I have heard some good reports!

Massachusetts Breast Cancer Coalition held their 2014 Against the Tide in Hopkinton and I was honored to have a great group of friends walk in honor of me and in loving memory of sweet Sarah Ruiz. Such an honor, thank you to all my peeps, I’m so proud of all of you and love you so much!! Rallying for Jess and Shining for Sarah!!

I also have to post some big thank yous to my nephew Andrew and niece Michaela, my cousin Sam, my brother Josh, my good friends Lisa, Michelle, Jennifer and the Tenney girls, sweet little Dagny and everyone else who walked in my honor and was thoughtful enough to put my name on a wall or lantern and say a prayer for me and my family.  We are so honored and I will never get sick of saying how blessed we are.  THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU ALL!

One thought on “Thursday June 26, 2014

  1. So glad you had a wonderful time in Spain. We missed you at the pink ball. You truly inspire me everyday! Thank you for all your help and support. You are amazing ♡

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