Surgery is coming quick…eeeek! I’m trying to wrap my head around it all and not procrastinate with the things that I need to take care of. To be honest, I am getting nervous. I’m not nervous or afraid of anything in regards to the surgery. Nothing about any of it scares me, it may gross me out, but it doesn’t scare me. I’m nervous to be away from my kids. My last hospital stay, which was 8 days long, was quite traumatic on all of us. My surgery is a Monday and I am having chemo on the Friday before, which is not ideal but it is what it is. I can’t miss a treatment and I am not going to miss this opportunity for surgery. My blood counts will drop after chemo, hopefully not much, and that just makes me more susceptible to infection. A hospital is not a healing environment. I don’t care what anyone says. A hospital is awesome for emergency situations and is my life line but its a bacteria filled breeding ground. I just pray I am stable after surgery and I can get home to recover with my family. I will have 5 incisions and at least 2 drains so I will be a tad uncomfortable but they better let me go home.
I saw a funny T-shirt in one of my breast cancer support groups. It said “Yes, they are fake, the real ones tried to kill me” Haha, Awesome.
As you may have noticed, I’m in the process of changing up my blog. It’s been primarily used as a medical journal to keep family and friends updated and on the same page with my condition and treatment. Since I’ve been stable and my treatment hasn’t had many recent curveballs, I’m taking a more active roll in posting things that my kids can look back at and smile. It will still mostly be about my stupid cancer but I wanted to lighten the mood up a bit.
We made some airpopped organic popcorn tonight and then decided to take a nice picture. Isabel decided she would slap her hands over Hannah and I and thought she was being funny.